Why am I passionate about this?

I am a survivor of dual tracks of abuse: both in the home and in higher education. The disturbing link between the two emerged after twenty years working across public, private, and elite universities, where I witnessed and endured so much. My story is one data point in a widespread crisis festering in the dark. Exposing that pressures universities to change. Through my memoir, related projects, and academicabuse.com—a hub of data and resources to identify and disrupt the problem—I aim to apply that pressure, and give survivors the tools and courage to do the same.


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The Burn List

By Julie Cruse ,

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What is my book about?

Students fleeing violent homes often see higher education as salvation. Cruse did too. But the same dynamics that fueled her…

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Julie Cruse Why I love this book

Phoenix does something unique: alongside her lived story, she builds an irrefutable case for why "consensual" relationships between professors and students are inherently unethical.

Her examination of how adults over 18 remain neurologically underdeveloped, her analysis of obedience to authority dynamics, and her discussion of professors as "helping professionals" evading sexual boundary ethics struck at the heart of the problem.

Additionally, the university, in her case, did hold the accused accountable and created new policies that were modeled by other universities. That's what inspired me to file my own Title IX complaint, which led to the resignation of the accused.

By Cal Louise Phoenix ,

Why should I read it?

1 author picked Studies in Lechery as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

Cal is determined to forge a stable future, free from the burdens of poverty, mental illness, and alcoholism. Pursuing academia—writing, research, and teaching—promises her a path to advance in life. But when her sociology professor seduces her, everything she’s worked for is threatened.What begins as a seemingly consensual relationship spirals into a nightmare fueled by deceit and manipulation. After it ends, Cal discovers she's just one of many victims of a serial predator who exploits students and other faculty for his own pathological desires, and that the institution she trusted has no policies to regulate this abuse.Through Cal's journey, we…


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A Portrait of the Scientist as a Young Woman by Lindy Elkins-Tanton,

A Portrait of the Scientist as a Young Woman explores how a philosophy of life can be built from the lessons of the natural world. Amid a childhood of trauma, Lindy Elkins-Tanton fell in love with science as a means of healing and consolation. She takes us from the wilds…

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Julie Cruse Why I love this book

What I found most shocking about this book is that it is still relevant.

Published in 1984 with a revised edition in 1990, Dziech and Weiner dissect the "lecherous professor" archetype and the problem of sexual harassment on campus from every angle, without pulling punches. They include real cases, quotes, and statistics, as well as warning signs and guides for students, parents, and administrators.

Reading the how and why of the way predators operate, victims respond, and universities enable the crisis let me know I was not alone! This has been known for decades, and here I was thinking I was the only one. Not anymore.

By Billie Wright Dziech , Linda Weiner ,

Why should I read it?

1 author picked The Lecherous Professor as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

How does society view and define sexual harassment of students by academicians? Does the collegiate environment exacerbate the problem and contribute to its current epidemic proportions? What can students, faculty, and administrators do about the problem? The Lecherous Professor addresses these timely issues, including the dilemma of teacher-student dating, newly devised policy statements on sexual harassment from several institutions, and faculty uneasiness about administrative directives on sexual harassment.


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Julie Cruse Why I love this book

What struck me most is that Russell flips the usual script: instead of everyone telling the victim "this didn't happen to you," everyone is telling Vanessa "this did happen to you."

But she can't admit it. Not even by the end. She clings to the belief that she had power in the relationship with her instructor to avoid the horror of how powerless she actually was. Even though it derailed her life and career.

I couldn't grasp what happened to me either. And in a lot of ways, no matter how much data I've gathered or what literature I've studied, I still don't. It's just that traumatic.

By Kate Elizabeth Russell ,

Why should I read it?

7 authors picked My Dark Vanessa as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

An instant New York Times and Sunday Times bestseller SHORTLISTED FOR THE 2021 DYLAN THOMAS AWARD

'A package of dynamite' Stephen King

'Powerful, compulsive, brilliant' Marian Keyes

An era-defining novel about the relationship between a fifteen-year-old girl and her teacher

ALL HE DID WAS FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AND THE WORLD TURNED HIM INTO A MONSTER

Vanessa Wye was fifteen-years-old when she first had sex with her English teacher.

She is now thirty-two and in the storm of allegations against powerful men in 2017, the teacher, Jacob Strane, has just been accused of sexual abuse by another former student.…


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We Had Fun and Nobody Died by Amy T. Waldman,

This irreverent biography provides a rare window into the music industry from a promoter’s perspective. From a young age, Peter Jest was determined to make a career in live music, and despite naysayers and obstacles, he did just that, bringing national acts to his college campus atUW-Milwaukee, booking thousands of…

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Julie Cruse Why I love this book

Sara Ahmed publicly resigned from her professorship at Goldsmiths in 2016 as a direct protest against the institution's failure to address sexual harassment.

This book was an outgrowth of all the letters she received from other victims, sharing how their universities also failed them during their complaints. Ahmed exposes the commonalities among the letters, unveiling how universities weaponize "shadow policies" to bury complaints and complainants' careers.

This book became my bible when I filed my first formal complaint and began experiencing the same systemic cover-up and retaliation she documents. Seeing every university trick in her book play out in real time in my case, at the very least, empowered me with a sense of solidarity.

By Sara Ahmed ,

Why should I read it?

1 author picked Complaint! as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

In Complaint! Sara Ahmed examines what we can learn about power from those who complain about abuses of power. Drawing on oral and written testimonies from academics and students who have made complaints about harassment, bullying, and unequal working conditions at universities, Ahmed explores the gap between what is supposed to happen when complaints are made and what actually happens. To make complaints within institutions is to learn how they work and for whom they work: complaint as feminist pedagogy. Ahmed explores how complaints are made behind closed doors and how doors are often closed on those who complain. To…


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The Burn List

By Julie Cruse ,

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What is my book about?

Students fleeing violent homes often see higher education as salvation. Cruse did too. But the same dynamics that fueled her childhood abuse operated covertly in universities. Across multiple institutions, professors used career control to coerce unpaid labor and sexual compliance—what Cruse calls "student trafficking."

Drawing from real documents, electronic communications, and both lived and witnessed experience, The Burn List exposes how universities prey on the most vulnerable. By making the cost of speaking up professional suicide for victims and bystanders alike, the cost of misconduct is effectively zero. Survivors are left to navigate impossible choices: stay silent or risk everything.

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